It's a Wonder

This past Saturday was Zoe's wedding in Neenah.  I went up early on Friday to help with the last-minute stuff that surrounds events like this. You remember how it goes ... eerily similar to our trek to Phoenix when Lynda got married. Errands to run, drama to damper and divert, smiles to interject ... just trying to make this sort of high-pressure thing happens with as little chaos as possible.  There honestly wasn't much to do on Friday. Lynda and Deb had it all pretty well under control. The hotel was just a block off the main drag in Neenah, so after running a couple of errands, Rob, Lynda and I walked to a local spot for dinner as everyone else headed toward the rehearsal activities.  Sitting in that bar, full of its Friday night crowd, it was hard to not think about what you'd have ordered or if you'd have thought it was too loud. We talked about Dylan's upcoming wedding and Kati's adventures in mom-hood. Our threesome was missing a piece. You should have be...

Jim, I am not your enemy.  I am not trying to make your life difficult. I have only ever wanted to make your life better.  I do not want you to suffer. I have only ever wanted for you to be happy and whole.  I do not wish for trouble to find you. I have only ever wanted good things for you.  But right now it feels like we are on opposite sides of something. Please know that we are not.  I don't know what we're supposed to do next. I'm stuck. I have no idea what you're really thinking or feeling and I spend way too much time trying to figure out the next chess move.  You say you want to be done, but you don't take any steps to make that happen. So does that mean you really don't want to be done? You just can't bring yourself to do it? Or does it mean it's already a closed chapter to you and the formalities of the actual ending are just not of interest to you because you know I'll just eventually take care of it. Maybe you're trying to hurt me by d...