I think you're not. Maybe I need to believe that for any of this to make sense. If you had just walked away from me, I think I could get my head around it. But you walked away from everyone and everything that ever mattered in your life. You left with two saddles, a red duffle bag, some tools, a few deer mounts, a turkey, some guns, and the clothes on your back. I guess you didn't arrive in my life with much more than that. But you walked away from your daughter. Who does that? Please get some help ... before this eats you up from the inside out or before you do this to someone else.
This past Saturday was Zoe's wedding in Neenah. I went up early on Friday to help with the last-minute stuff that surrounds events like this. You remember how it goes ... eerily similar to our trek to Phoenix when Lynda got married. Errands to run, drama to damper and divert, smiles to interject ... just trying to make this sort of high-pressure thing happens with as little chaos as possible. There honestly wasn't much to do on Friday. Lynda and Deb had it all pretty well under control. The hotel was just a block off the main drag in Neenah, so after running a couple of errands, Rob, Lynda and I walked to a local spot for dinner as everyone else headed toward the rehearsal activities. Sitting in that bar, full of its Friday night crowd, it was hard to not think about what you'd have ordered or if you'd have thought it was too loud. We talked about Dylan's upcoming wedding and Kati's adventures in mom-hood. Our threesome was missing a piece. You should have be...
As I sit here in this house, all by myself, day after day, I can't help but think about your new life. And how great it sounds. You see, I've been basically living in this suspended reality since you've been gone. I've put my life on hold for the most part, as I waited for you to come home in a couple of days ... or later this week ... or next weekend ... or soon. None of which ever came. You, on the other hand, have been on quite an adventure. It sounds like fun to me. Everything is new and fresh and exciting ... the relationship and the activities. You've moved four times, five if you count leaving here. You've had plenty of projects at the house you were moving from and the house you were moving to. You've gotten to do a flip ... something near and dear to your heart. Always something new to think about, something new to accomplish. It's work, but it's fun. I'm assuming you've been on some amazing vacations. Maybe they're horse r...
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